I'll be honest, I am envious of people who are in touch with their emotions.
I am aloof, which makes me a terrible candidate to even be considered for a relationship.
My last, I guess, real relationship I had was maybe... 3 - 4 years ago. Is it even weird that I didn't even remember the exact year let alone the date of that particular relationship. Thankfully, I did remember the person I was in a relationship with.
Aaanyway... One of the things I remembered was the reason the whole thing crashed down and out of control was when I was being too emotional about it. I had no one to tell me how a relationship should be like.
That's why now, I am blank of any emotions when it comes to .. umm.. matters of the heart and all that bullshit. I am the hot sexy .... poker face.
I am smiling with a straight face.. yes. I love you, but my face would never give me away. I could be indifferent, but other people might think that I look somehow, pissed off.
It takes a while for me to register excitement, or anything that is remotely close to ... being humane.
Sue once told me that I need someone to claim me.
The thing is, I don't really need to be claimed.
My other friends think that it would be fucking interesting to see me fall in love and not in lust with anyone.
I know I would be interested to know what stupid shit I will be doing this time around.