I am kind of detached from my family somewhat. Detached here meaning that, I am just, not close to them.
I have been brought up on tough love. I was the eldest of three siblings and I had to be in charge, involuntarily.
It is not a tradition in our family to be affectionate. I don't hug or kiss my parents whenever I go out. I do kiss their hands, only because, it's THE thing to do to your parents or anyone else who are older than I am.
I don't sign off with a 'Love You' in my SMSes to my Mum and I never got a 'Love you' from them either.
It's all rather...
I only 'peluk' and 'cium pipi' (hugs and cheek kiss) with my Aunts because they did it. You can see the awkwardness whenever my Mother, Sister and I had to do it.
That would be because, we don't do that. We have never been brought up that way.
So, because of that, I am unable to relate to family issues. Never been sure on how to act to the situation. I know that I give cash and stuff, but I am just, shite at doing all the other stuff.
I have never had that need to make babies in the hope of them taking care of me when I am old.
I am hoping that I would be good enough surviving on my own. Afterall, I am getting to used to being alone right now anyway.
Oh well, Maybe I would change, maybe I would not.
One thing's for sure... IF I am ever going to change... EVER, I would make sure that my kid would not grow up like me.