I haven't blogged for a long time.. yes I know that.
I have been doing some soul searching.
I surprised myself at what I am telling myself during the soul searching period.
I came to see that certain things are not for real, certain things are just not there to stay. And I am not referring to life alone.
All the other things.
The only thing that will stick with me, however, are memories.
And it is up to me to make it a lovely memory, or otherwise.
Also, I have come to a resolution that I will not be doing something that everybody expects me to. I am sorry to disappoint some people with my decision, but hey, you have to do what you have to do.
When you have gone through heaps of emotional mess, the way I did, you tend to look at things... differently. Your expectations of everything and everyone is low and you are technically not able to trust people the way you did years ago when you still have your youth to hang on to.
Soul Searching is a massive pain in the ass.