Thursday, January 10, 2013

Be still my broken heart

I can say that I am a bit of a morbid person.

A bit unsettling and dark...

And... negative.

I have always thought what if  I die when I go on a long distance trip. What would happen to my belongings, and if it's going to be better for the people who knows/knew me.

I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing thinking about death and its' aftermath. All I know is that I always thought that I haven't live life enough. I want to keep on living life the way I am supposed to be. Obstacles however, make it easy for me to give up, 96% of the time.

I seriously do not know what I want to do in life. I don't know what I can do career-wise though I think it's high time for me to move on and do something else. I am not sure if I want to be in another relationship although my resolution did list 'finding a boyfriend' as one of the objective for 2013.

I am not sure about anything now. Even life itself is as fragile as egg shells.

My life is in the hands of the universe. I am an insignificant speck. Do as you will with me.


1 comment:

  1. maybe you should consider finding a job abroad?
    I mean changing the environment might do you some good.
    Better than paying for therapy , yes?