Sometime in the past, I was jumping from one relationship to another.
I am reminded of that when I went through my blog.
I started this blog back in 2007. In actuality, I have blogged longer than I that. my first two blogs, I shut down because I was 'grieving' after my so called relationships with a couple of fucktards didn't work out.
Of course, back then, I sort of figured that I am a fuck-tard myself.
I also realized that when you really actually have nothing to say, people flock to your blog. My entries were simple, I was (Still is) an exhibitionist and my posts were simply, posts that didn't make any kind of sense at all.
Then again, which blog actually has any kind of sense in them anyway?
I also decided to drop by Izso's blog. Since he became a father, his postings have become shorter and shorter. His most current post lamented on how writing used to be so much fun.
Back then when people just have good things to say, or criticism that's conveyed with tack and civility. This brand of readers and bloggers are becoming harder and harder to come by.
I used to be able to post nearly 20 posts a month, now, well, I'd consider it productive if I actually managed to come up with 7 per month. Of course, back then, I have free unrestricted (Except to Porn sites) internet access in the office and loads of time on my hands.
Now, well, the main reason would be that I am a workaholic who works more than 40 hours per week, more interested in finishing my work rather than using the internet and writing blogs.
The urge to prove to myself and also to my bosses that I am every bit capable to handle everything that's thrown my way supercedes my love for writing, at the moment.
And to be honest, another reason would also be that now, I only want to write about other things of lesser importance just because I don't want to be thinking about anything too seriously.
I am not trying to be a superwoman. I don't think I can, but I do think that I am somewhat a formidable force when it comes to work and career. Not easy to manage 20 people and I know other people who have managed more than 300 people in a single division.
I am thinking if they can do it, I can do it most definitely.
I will just have to resist the temptation to bang my head against the wall. Good thing my office doesn't have windows... I am on the 16th floor afterall.
Hey... I actually came up with an entry! Sweet!