Monday, July 23, 2007

I am all caught up... :P

Loneliness is a bitch.

Don’t get me wrong, I am fine with being single. I have more time for myself and I could see clearly the things that really mattered.

But loneliness is a bitch. It is that feeling of emptiness whenever I lie down on my bed, looking at my cell and finding out that noone called me at all on that day and discovering that I don’t even have the chance to be like the touchy feely teenager walking in front of me.

And I am 28.

I am stuck in between, if you may say so. I want to be on my own, having my own space but I also want to have someone I could turn to in times where I would be looking for support, or just someone to baby me once in a while.

That’s why I freaked when a relationship didn’t materialize and when all of the sudden, the man I am seeing would be talking about meeting my parents, weddings and what nots.

Both being single and committed sent me running. Now if only I could split myself to two then perhaps I could at least have the best of both worlds!

I want companionship. But I also want my independence. Is that so hard to get?

Say it, I am confused.

6 comments:

  1. 'emptiness', 'loneliness sux', hmmm who doesn't? (ni utk yg single shj) *huggies*

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  2. perhaps long distance love affair will work for you? who knows...

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  3. You look different in that photo babe. Sweeter.

    *take a deep breath*

    I feel for you. I know how you feel at times. Jgn sedih sedih ok? Come to KL and i'll bring you out to see my buddies.

    The time will come my friend.

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  4. lilith,

    only single women. single guys takde bende. to them lonely is non existent.. how i wish i have a dick sometimes.

    MsD..

    hehe.. dunno la.. wa givapppp.

    Sheryl,

    i want to go and club when we go up can??? nak testing my pick up skills still have or not.. hahaha

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  5. unfortunately
    we can't have it all
    win some lose some

    life demands patience and sacrifice

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  6. loneliness is not a bitch. I AM. a lonely bitch. hahahahah.

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