"No. I don't believe in marriage."
To which he replied with 'That's a pretty strong statement.'
It is a strong statement.
Recently one of the blogger in the upscale celebrity world of blogland got hitched. It came to me as a shock. Well, I know that they have been together for some time, but marriage after (I guess, a year?) is pretty... fast.
*Hyperventilating... fuh.. fuh...*
It's just fast.
And then a good friend of mine had recently started a relationship. Barely a month into the relationship, they are already making plans to be engaged in February 2011.
Please understand first and foremostly that I have nothing against marriage, sure I don't believe in it, but I have nothing against it.
However, at 31, even the idea of starting a new relationship scares me to death. It is nuts to go through all that again. The infatuation, the wondering... and of course, the break - up...
And yes, I know that I am not pretty enough, skinny enough and also my parents are not rich enough for me to qualify as someone's significant other.
Plus... I am a cocky, sarcastic bitch. Kind, I would like to think, even though I have low tolerance towards incompetence.
And as reflected by one of my best friends, VERY high maintenance.
Both in material and intellectual expectations.
I only have high material expectations because I now can pretty much provide for myself. I expect the man I would end up with (Either in a long term relationship... or marriage) to have control on his own life.
A bonus if he is well groomed and cute... without me pushing him to be... I am done being the mother in a relationship.
But, I am well aware that I am not living in a fantasy world. Even my supposedly gay friend looks like a yeti, how can I expect any straight men to be otherwise...
Congratulations Ninie... and to my good friend... May the engagement plans go through. ;)
As for me, I will continue to hyperventilate, just like the way I did when I got proposed to and
Still looking out for that silver lining.
Maybe, Mr. Skelly will turn to my independent dream stud?